The Woes of Weening

I completely stopped breastfeeding about 2 weeks ago. I didn't want to. Sweet Baby Zo Zo just got so bad with her teeth. This is also coming from someone who had their nipples pierced. You don't know pain, until you experience a baby chopping down on your boobs. Ahhhhhh! I just grabbed my tit thinking about it. She thought it was funny too.

Breastfeeding is exhausting. It's so demanding. We never really gave her pacifiers, but who needs that when you have a boob? I was her pacifier and her bottle and her teething toy all in one. I was the only one who could really feed her at night. Yeah, we supplemented her since she was born, but if I was home, I fed her. Breast is best!

You could say I kind of disliked breastfeeding, but I miss it so much I want to cry. I have to fight back tears on the daily basis. As much as I loathed it, it was nice that she needed me. I miss her nuzzling her head in my chest. I miss her freaking out when she would see me without a shirt after a shower. I miss looking into those big, round eyes while I held her close. Breastfeeding is the most intimate thing a mother and child ever get to do. And now it's over.

My next child, I plan to do it longer. I want to be one of those weirdo people that breastfeed their 2 year old. It's honestly not that weird. Humans are the only species that takes another animals milk. And who decided cows milk was best? Our milk is nothing like cows. If anything, a goat is the closest to us. That's not really the point though.

I'm glad I was at least able to breastfeed her for the time I did. We struggled with it at first, but we got our shit together and had 7 wonderful months of mother/daughter bonding time.

P.S. I don't miss my boobs squirting milk during sex. The worst!